the sound of silence

ok, so maybe only silence in the adoption part of my life.

thank you to everyone who has asked about little man, told me you prayed for us and him this week, or asked to see his picture. i cannot begin to tell you how this has warmed my heart.

i long to talk about him, but there is nothing new to say.

nothing.

we have not heard a peep from our agency in over a week.

we are just actively praying that God will make him ours. that he will be matched to us when the sna is finished looking over our dossier. it has been at the sna for about 1 month now. usually they take about 2 months to go over it. sometimes they ask for supporting documents or for something to be redone. i know this. i also know this will drive me crazy when it happens. seriously what more could they ask for? i am sure they can come up with something!

there has not been a consejo or matching meeting yet in november. i am hoping that there will still be one this month. monday...tuesday...wednesday. there is slim to no chance that we will be matched this month. so don't get your hopes up...that was more to me than to you. just trying to remind myself.

we had a wonderful thanksgiving here in the midwest. the weather was beautiful and "big bird" as our turkey was affectionately know as (all 20.7 lbs) was delicious. we all ate until we were stuffed and required napping. i am pretty sure that several family members had to undo the top button of their pants to be able to breathe. little bit enjoyed the holiday and all of the yummy food. i am sure her favorite part was the same as mine...everyone was home.

i cannot lie, it is my favorite to have all my chicks back in my nest.

friday morning at 5 am, my bigger girls and i joined the crazies for a little black friday shopping. we had a great time, including starbucks and panera and mostly getting done christmas shopping. then home for a nap and a big piece of pie for lunch.

my goal is to be finished shopping (all except stocking stuffers) by next weekend. i would like to be able to relax and enjoy the season a little. do some baking. sing some carols. make gingerbread houses. we shall see if i get there or not.

i added a few newbies to my etsy shop. 3 new necklaces to be exact.

nest pendant, silver with aqua pearls





nest pendant, antique gold with ivory speckled beads


















free to fly necklace

if you are local and would like one of the necklaces please message me and we will chat...that way you do not have to pay shipping.

i also have a few bags for sale. they are $25 each (please include $2.50 for shipping) and are available immediately.

exteriors are men's suiting or denim and interiors are calico. all of the flowers are handmade by yours truly, 2 matching fabrics and 1 out of a vintage hankie. all of the bags have 2 large pockets big enough to hold your droid or your iphone. all are completely lined. all help our adoption.

if you want more info or more photos please message me and i will send you an email.





i have been completely blown away by the generosity of others lately. several jewelry orders, one bag, 2 fundraisers in the mix. a friend talked to me and the hubster this morning at church about wanting to do something for us to help us bring our little man home. i have been close to tears most of the day, due to his generosity.

whether or not the fundraisers even happen...well, my heart has been touched.

maybe it's things like that that make the silence bearable. because this wait is hard. much harder than with little bit. most likely because we have wrestled with God over this one. probably because we have been praying for a family for him for close to 14 months now. somewhere along the way we realized that "we" were the "family" we had been praying about for him. am i ready? not really. but i believe in a God that is bigger than my emotions. He is bigger than what i think i can do. He is able to give me what i need to mother this boy, this child, this son.

we talk a lot about him. i think about him constantly. i count him as i count my others. it is strange not buying presents for him this year, not seeing his face at the table, not tucking him in bed tonight. no bedtime story, no butterfly kisses, not tickles and giggles. not yet.

if God is willing, i will call him son.

until then i will pray that it will be so.

because as a friend pointed out recently, the girls are winning in our family and we should make it even again.

will little bit's world be rocked? absolutely. but maybe it will bring healing to her life to. maybe it will cause her to trust us more, to know that although we go back, she can come home.

i know, i know her bangs are too long, mom....don't worry i already cut them.

she was reading to her baby. so sweet.

it's kinda funny. i really thought that since we made a mental decision to adopt little man, i would not be so emotional about it this time. wrong. i cannot get through a worship service without crying. any kind word sets me off too, not that i am encouraging you to be mean. but i am emotional, pregnant style. eighth month pregnant emotional.

maybe silence isn't so bad.