just a whisper

just a whisper of hope.

today through an email from our agency.

i couldn't stand it anymore, so i asked some tough questions.

they are doing a little checking, so i should know more soon.

for today it has to be enough.

they feel that we will be matched to little man. mostly due to the fact that we have met him. i am pretty sure no one else can say that.

you see, the list is just that, a list. nothing more. no photos, nothing distinguishing, very little data. to get more info you have to ask to see the file. often times you are given a short file and have to ask for more.

i was reminded that just because someone looks at the file, does not mean they request the child.

it's true, we looked at 5 different files before we decided to pursue little bit.

i guess i have been letting my fear over the future get the best of me. when what i really need to do is trust the only ONE who is able to help.

"and even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. so don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." matthew 10:30-31

it's good to be reminded.

"the LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” deuteronomy 31:8

these are the things i need to remember.

i think i have checked the mimdes website about 20 times today. no consejo. at least none that has been posted. i don't expect to see us matched this month, i am just hoping to not see someone else matched with him either. so i keep checking. and checking. and checking.

for today it will rest in this.

just a whisper of truth.

“so do not be afraid of them, for there is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known. what I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs." matthew 10:26-27

if you see me would you please remind me of the things i know to be true. that God is in this. that He is the One who brought little man into our lives. that is it His delight to put the orphan in a family. that when God is for me, who can be against me? that prayer is the best way to fight this battle. that all this was His idea in the first place.

would you be nice and just whisper it to me?

"then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble,and He brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed." psalm 107:28-29


just a whisper.